It’s been a long while since I’ve made it here to post. In the whirlwind of daily life, it’s easy to get caught in a relentless cycle of work and obligations. Recently, I found myself in such a vortex. The last month or two have been a blur of travel, customer events, extended working hours, and tasks to check off a list. It wasn’t until today, when I finally gave myself a moment of pause, that I realized I’m on the rat wheel of life and don’t want to be any more.

For the past couple of months, I’ve been operating in ‘go mode,’ a state I find myself in from time to time and it’s one that I dislike. It’s a mode where I get hyper focused on work and executing to reach the end goal. I’m physically present but mentally absent, merely skimming the surface of life’s richness. This realization struck a chord in me, awakening a familiar yet unsettling feeling of discontent, which historically leads to feeling depressed for a bit.

Today was different though as  I reflected more deeply, I questioned the nature of this feeling. What are the physical sensations that I’m experiencing? Could it be something other than depression? Is it something more subtle? Dissatisfaction seemed the best word to describe my current path. It’s a reminder for me that I yearn for something more meaningful and fulfilling in my life.

I aspire to work on challenging problems that have the potential to make a significant difference in the world. I long to find ‘my tribe’—a group of like-minded individuals who are eager to discuss serious global issues, share perspectives openly, and collaboratively seek ways to create a positive impact.

This mini journey of introspection is helping me shift my narrative. Rather than viewing my current state as a cause for despair, I’m asking myself to try and see that this could be a catalyst, reminding me that greater opportunities lie just ahead. It’s a sign that I’m ready to explore change and actively seek the path that aligns with my deeper aspirations. The road ahead is promising and I just felt a tingle of excitement about its possibilities.